Thursday, March 21, 2013

Letting Go and Moving On

Today should have been my 21st wedding anniversary. Instead, I'm anxiously awaiting a settlement conference date to finalize the details of our divorce. Since I'm the one who initiated the process, I can't complain, but it's still sad to think about, all too easy to dwell on.

Along with the divorce, and the unfortunate accompanying tangle of emotions, comes a concurrent break with a couple of forlorn what-ifs (cryptic enough for ya?).  Supposedly, it takes 21 days to break a habit. My question regarding that oft-spouted tidbit of conventional wisdom: even if it's something that's been plaguing you for over 24 years? We'll see. My guess is, replacing the habit with a more positive outlet for the needs involved will be the only way to cure myself of this seemingly unending cycle rooted in futility and rejection.

Anyway, it's time to call up my newly single friends (surprisingly, there's a wave of us) and get out there. Along with posting some better pictures of myself on the dating websites so people don't just see my round face and assume I'm chunky. Because this should be fun, right?

Oy vey.

4 comments:

Martina at Adventures in YA Publishing said...

I'm proud of you, Ara. Go get them! I love that you are going after life and embracing the future!!!!!

Hugs,

M.

Ara Burklund said...

Thanks, Martina! It's so weird to think about!!! Hope to see you in L.A. this summer. xo

Leslie S. Rose said...

You have more courage than I do, Ara. I am scared spitless of dating websites even though I know lots of couples that met that way. You're such an awesome person - the fates will smile on you. xo

Ara Burklund said...

Thanks, Leslie! I'm looking forward to good things being part of the future. : )